I'm trying my best.

Dear Lailah,
You are currently 8.5 and I've begun homeschooling you this year. You hate reading, writing, and social studies. You are supposed to do schoolwork for 5 hours a day and you postpone for over 1.5 hours each day. It is driving me insane. I just sent you to lay down to take a nap because you've been whining non stop nearly all day. You're refusing to pay attention to what is being taught to you. Idk what to do. I want to homeschool you because the school systems here are absolutely terrible and the bullying in schools is out of control. But at the same time I feel like I can't teach you anything when you literally ignore what is being taught to you.
Other than school you are an incredible little human who is compassionate, heart felt, caring, thoughtful, fun, enthusiastic, you demonstrate leadership qualities, you are a positive role model for your brother and others, you are helpful, and smart. You just hate paying attention to things you don't feel interested in and you like to push boundaries.
You still see a therapist - Gabrielle, for your anxiety. You like going to see her, although, you push boundaries with her as well. She will ask you to pick 3 colors and you'll try to pick 6 colors. You push whatever you can if you feel you can get away with it. I usually have to step in and enforce a boundary for you to abide by.
You are in cheerleading and you really enjoy it - although, you say you do not want to do it again next year. You knew going into it that you would have to complete the season so I think you're doing your best to do just that. You really do like it, but you're not fond of the strict rules.
We had a really fun day last Friday, I think it was, we invited your dad to go to IHOP with us all and we spent time as a family. Afterwards, your dad took us all mini golfing. It was a lot of fun. <3 I really like that your dad doesn't have any issues including himself in our family because I feel that is really beneficial for you in the long run.

<3 I love you. I really truly want the best for you and sometimes I don't know if I'm making the right choices or if I am doing the right things, but I am trying, I am honestly trying my best.