Story of your name.

"I have always found the mystical side of Judiasm, the stories and the concepts, fascinating. . The following suggests that, from the time of birth, the spiritual aspect of the child has been cultivated and that at some unconscious level we are aware of spiritual secrets we have otherwise forgotten. The spiritual truth lies beneath the surface, if only we will seek it out.
According to The Zohar, there is an angel, Lailah; the angel of conception, who waits, and at the appropriate time brings the soul of the yet-to-be-born child to its parents. In Jewish legend, she is also the angel of the Night. The soul and body of man are united in this way.
When the time has come for a man and his wife to conceive a child, God directs Lailah to seek out a certain soul hidden in the Garden of Eden, and command it to enter a drop of semen. At first the soul refuses as it still remembers the pain of being born, and it prefers to remain pure. Nonetheless, Lailah compels the soul to obey, and that is when God pronounces what the fate of that sperm will be...whether male or female, strong or weak, rich or poor, and so on. Then the angel turns around and places the soul in the womb of the mother.
While the infant grows in the womb, Lailah places a lighted candle at the head of the unborn infant, so it can see from one end of the world to the other, as it is said, 'His lamp shone above my head, and by His light I walked through darkness'.
For nine months, Lailah watches over the unborn, teaching it the entire Torah as well as the history of its soul. Before the is born, it is given an oath to keep its soul pure. Then Lailah accompanies the child into the Garden of Eden, and shows it the righteous ones. So too does Lailah lead the child to the netherworld and shows it the punishments of Gehenna.
But when the time has come to be born, Lailah extinguishes the lamp, and brings forth the child into the world. The instant the child emerges, she lightly strikes the newborn above the lip, causing it to cry out. And at that very moment, the infant forgets all it has learned.
This is the origin of the mark on the upper lip, which everyone bears. Indeed, Lailah is a guardian angel, who watches over that child all of its days. And when the time has come to take leave of this world, it is Lailah who appears and says, “Do you not recognize me? The time of your departure has come. I have come to take you from this world.”
Thereupon Lailah leads him to the World to Come, where he or she has an account before God, and is accordingly judged."

http://secretsofthenight-mxtodis123.blogspot.com/2011/11/lailah-angel-of-conception.html


While pregnant with you, I felt that this angel was with me at all times and that ultimately I unconsciously named you after her. Before having you I had visions, visions of life and death. I knew when people would conceive and when babies would be born - the specific day. I saw visions of my head of accidents and I got feelings of death and knew someone was going to die right before they did. I came to believe she was with me and she helped bring me you.