Dear Lailah, you turned SIX yesterday !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!I can not believe that I've had you in my life for 6 years now. You're my little angel. You've come to this Earth through me. My body created you and by you entering my life - you saved me. You have made me not only a (hopefully) good mother - but a better person. Everyday I strive to be the best person and mother I can be for you. I strive to make you a better person than me one day and to help you succeed beyond what I have. I aim to be here for you at all times and be your support when you feel you have none. I want to be to you everything I didn't have in my life. I want you to know and understand that I love you with absolutely everything I am. You are an incredible little girl. Your smile can brighten anyones day. Your personality can create fun for anyone around - you are so spunky, creative, and active. You are such a little leader - although sometimes you can be a bit bossy. :p You are funny and silly - you can always bring a smile to my face and make me laugh. You are so smart and bright! I am impressed with you everyday how well you do in not only school but in dealing with and observing life around you. How well you cope with others and situations in life - inspires me. You are compassionate and caring and you teach me who I want to be just by being your loving little self. You care so much about others. You are so kind. You often will just randomly think about me and bring me a water or a snack - simply because you believe I'll enjoy it. And I always do! You're so thoughtful and helpful and just - perfect. I love you to pieces and I hope we can always be as close as we are now. <3 You mean the world to me. Having you was the biggest decision of my life and I would never change it for anything. I've struggled - we've struggled and I'm sorry. But one day I will prove to you that I can give us a happy life - I hope. <3 Thank you, for choosing me as your mommy and thank you for being you.
For your birthday I got you the outfit above and those shoes. :) You really seemed to love them! Your birthday party is this weekend. I'll write back and tell how it goes so that one day you can look back and see your life from my perspective.
Love, Mommy.
