My number one.

My number one, you are my absolutely number one. You're the most beautiful person in the entire world. You're the cutest thing ever created. You're my everything. You'll never understand what you mean to me until you grow up and maybe have children of your own one day. I love you more than I ever believed I could possibly love anyone. I will keep telling you until the day I die. I may not always be around right now, and I'm sorry. I try to spend as much time with you as I can, I try to be with you as often as I can, But right now things are really difficult for me. I know sorry doesn't fix anything.. and soon I will fix things. Right now I'm trying to deal with everything that is bottled up inside of me. I want what is best for you. I want to give you the world. And in order for that to happen I have to fix myself and I have to get better. I have to be better for you. I know right now you don't understand, but I hope one day you will. I hope you'll understand all my choices. But I want you to know that at the end of the day, every thing I do, every smile, every breath that I take, is for you. You've inspired me to be everything I can. I'm here for you until my very last breath.